Who am I ?
This question has boggled me for so long…
Who am I ? Who am I ?
I took me 28 full years, where suddenly one morning, feeling almost destitute of hope, apathetic in motivation, as I was projecting any probable adventure ahead as a resolution of suffering, that a glimpse unfolded. I did not know where to go as every direction outward was overwhelming me with a sensation of loss and depression.
My options seemed to only comprise of a diminution of pain… With the little time I had before my next appointment, I decided to sit down and channel my higher self through dance. Which I start doing through asking myself three questions:
Do I know who I am ?
Do I feel who I am ?
Am I who I am ?
As I was sitting before asking these questions, I started to loose myself again in problems-solving thoughts that seemed never ending. I almost layed down on the floor from lack of self-reliance and motivation about these giant coordinations problems. When I remembered to ask myself the questions…
As I asked the first question, an intuition came to me. An upward force came down on me, vertically within my central axis. A recognition of the communication from spirit. Simultaneously a force from below me transcended my ‘matter’ through. My ever doubting mind, double checked, verified cautiously do I know who I am ? The experience was a constant confirming YES.
I asked my next question, and felt a humbly confirming yes, I can feel who I am. I was somewhat overwhelmed with admiration, vulnerability, confidence, evidence, enlightenment; the whole range of emotions between the two polarities of superiority and inferiority in the constructive sense. This upward force and this downward force simultaneously. Symbolically, one white, one black.
I asked my last question: Am I who I am ? Again the self evidence was striking. I was feeling infinite. The blinding strength of what my presence is, filled every corner of my being. Yet the dampening simplicity of what my matter body is, gave me this serious allowance of being here. To be part of the physical world and having a local experience. It is difficult to put into just words what this state of being is, as I could feel every quality opposed within another aspect of the totality of who I am. And that is probably also how the magnitude of what I know my being to be, could truly emerge. Allowing the lowest or the highest so that it’s opposite emerges too. Maybe, if you know that your greatness is not embodied yet, it could be that you still hold a judgment and a disallowance to be littleness.
Wherever I go, I felt simply just. Just to who I am. Enough, whole, simple yet so lightly penetrative to all. Truly this sensation that you’ve got all you need in you. I am my own medicine. Self reflective and this was also a surprising event. Since I have quite a baggage of spiritual knowledge and experience, I consider myself to be extremely critical when it gets to the topic of feeling enlightened, so I had a series of critical questions for myself… But here was the surprising point: Those were not my questions… Those doubts and judgments came from other bodies, and as frustrating it may be, only added more weight and slowness to myself to answer them. It was in a sense not self reflective, and would be contrary to enlightenment. This made me realize that it is truly a gift one is offering to take the time to answer certain questions. You literally offer your being, your essence energy, if that could be considered a currency. Not to be offered so lightly as a dogma…
This is it.
Who am I ? I am infinite. I am infinity.
I am a willingness to be as I am.
I am the formless within the form. The non-local, ever beyond, coinciding a local, bodily experience.
My name is Cyr.
Moreover, I am the creator of Bloom Infinity and a Movement Altruist of ONE MOVEMENT.
As a facilitator for making the mission of humanity conscious, I share my joy for dance and my love for the interconnectedness between all living forms.
Born in a village of meditators, raised between artistry and sports, I learned to view the world with open eyes.
My dance education started at the age of seven and was completed in Zurich at the dance academy(TaZ) in 2015.
From 2015-2018 I danced in several renowned companies such as the Netherlands Dance Theatre, Scapino Ballet Rotterdam, or the State Theatre of Hessen as a soloist dancer, allowing myself to work personally with choreographers such as Akram Khan, Wayne McGregor and Hofesh Schechter .
Creating now my own performances, I already have collaborated with the university of Darmstadt, the Opera of Wiesbaden, Scapino Ballet Rotterdam, Laura Rae Bernasconi’s company, and others.
My philosophy of massage
My father, being himself owner of the biggest chair-massage company in Switzerland, influenced me by making me simply enjoy and learn the benefits about massages. Within this interest for health, I developed my expertise in massages through exploring the anatomy and experiencing dance for more than 15 years. I persist and dedicate my life to reproduce the beautiful stream-like forms of nature in the body because I believe that nature holds all the secrets to life. My goal is to create connection for enlightenment, with your self or with others. Enlightenment for joy or spiritual satisfaction.
Sensitivity and empathy
After living with two therapists specialised in trauma healing, I got accustomed to become more sensitive to subtle energies at work, all the time. This meeting of worlds created a boost of lucidity for me. From simple unexpressed emotions, fears, attachments but also the relationship with our imagination of reality, can create a lot of confusing feelings and phenomenons in our lives. I learned from and with them many tools and tricks to overcome automatic, habitual and unconscious patterns. Such as soul fragmentation work, inner child work, past life trauma work, karmic/heritage ties, and several other modalities to allow your sovereignty back over your life.
I have consciously entered the world of Light language that has originated from a Mexican tribe of Curanderos and Curanderas(shamans) since 2017. This Language has cleared many doubts I had about life since it is the ultimate form of white magic. Using colours and shapes(polyhedras) as the means of communication. Simple and universal phenomena’s.
As I implemented more awareness in this deep wisdom, I started to expand as well my perception to be able to see sometimes aura’s, extra-dimensional beings and thought forms(an etheric structure created by our thoughts).
Led by my roots in ancient shamanistic teachings, I feel compelled to share and also organize retreats related to movement, health and the sensitivity of spirituality. I am very passionate about the vision that life is a dance.
Injuries
During my life, I have had several big injuries that guided me in special directions to grow closer to my purpose in life. A twisting tear of my Tibia with a fracture of my ankle, 5 years of recurring tendinitis, growing pain that weakened my muscles to such a degree that I would rip them monthly, a broken toe, 3 stress fractures in my last two vertebrae(L4-L5), and many more inflammations and other injuries that I could keep at a lower pace.
As my older brother also dances professionally I had the chance to have someone already experienced with whom I could share about bodily difficulties. I remembered him making fun of how often I was injured in my early dance years. I had a mindset that I would rather face life at 170% and learn my lessons fast so I won’t have to deal with them later. And I was warned by him and others how dance, especially ballet, could destroy your joints or bones when not done carefully. This obsessed me in taking the most care of my body.
Through going all of these injuries, I learned a lot how to deal with the body. Not only have I seen many therapists such as physios, Osteopaths, Chiropractors, doctors specialised in extreme sports but also a more alternative side of medicine such as acupuncture, biodynamic osteopathy, Reiki, Gyrotonic, Rolfing(Structural Integration) or Light Language.
With distance I can say that all of these methods bring with them great healing, but they cannot be generalised for all. The patient needs to discern for him/herself if the form of healing makes sense to them. Sometimes the weirdest treatments bring the greatest healing.
I keep deepening myself into the mechanics of the human body, so I can allow myself to further share tools as a personal trainer for anatomical restructuring, energy field alignment and creating coherent life-postures for a healthy life-style.
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